Forgetting
I remember our first dates
               eating barbecue in Papa Willie’s as lunch turned to   
                    dinner
               riding your motorcycle to see the countryside, secretly
                    scared to death
               the orange Gatorade staining your mouth as we sat on
                    the concrete picnic table
I remember not wanting a third date
               “No,” I answered
               I was too ambivalent, too unready to date again
               I cut you off and left for the beach
I remember driving home
               getting the call that you and your parents were in a
                    freak accident
               a car crashed through a restaurant window, hitting you
                    all as you ate dinner
               you were staying at their house as you all recovered
I remember the church bringing food as you all healed
               I signed up for pineapple and raisin glazed ham
               delivered it and saw you sitting in a chair,
                    deliberately not looking up at me
               and that was when I realized I’d made a mistake
I remember thinking what a bitch I’d been
               feeling the urge to apologize and find out what you’d
                    been through
               texting you, “Do you want to talk?”
               my heart skipping a beat with your reply: “Well, YEAH!”
I remember the phone ringing
               you didn’t waste a second
               we talked for hours about the accident, about my trip,
                    about us
               you asked me out again, and I accepted
I remember our next dates
               walks in the Griffin city park,
               sitting on a swing,
               talking hours on end, conducting “traffic counts”
I remember our first kiss
               you opened the car door for me, took my seatbelt and
                    fastened it
               your lips accidentally brushed mine as you backed out of
                    the car
               “There you go,” I smiled, and kissed you back, and then
                     kissed you again.
I remember the Valentine’s date to see Gordon Lightfoot in concert
               finding a smashed trinket ring in the parking lot
               probably a Cracker Jack surprise, tucking it in my pocket
               humming “Rainy Day People” all the way home
I remember our memorable walks in the Griffin city park,
               but none more so than the day you left the swing
               and got down on one knee, and reached in your pocket
               and proposed with the Cracker Jack ring that you’d   
                    resurrected with pliers
I remember your royal blue shirt and your jeans and the love in
                     your eyes
               and the matching royal blue car speeding by
               a teenage boy fist-pumping cheers out the window as he
                    watched you propose
               and answering “Yes,” even before you said, “I want us to
                    choose a better ring together.”
I remember our tenth anniversary
               lying in bed, late at night, when you rolled over and said,
                      “Oh no!”
               alarmed, I sat up.  “What?!”
               “I forgot what today was, and I just remembered,” you
                   sorrowfully confessed
I remember that I, too, did not realize it was our tenth anniversary
               until you reminded me
               there are 365 days in a year, and an anniversary should
                   be celebrated
               especially a tenth anniversary
    but when two people love the way we do every day, it’s
                   so easy to forget…
  -Kim Johnson

              

My Daughter

baby girl, 7 pounds, 14 ounces
beautiful, smart, third year art student
the devil took you to the hell of
heroin, meth, and homelessness
tinted your windows with glassy eyes
tilted your world with blurred perception
traded your baby for needles and pills

through it all, your mother prayed daily
          and every time the phone rang:  please not the morgue, please bring her back
but a call came

an arrest – hope!
an empty shell huddled in a cell, finally broken enough, willing to try living again
a reformative 9-month womb:  the Bethany House
God performed another Technicolor miracle
righted your ship, focused your lens, restored your soul
I praise Him for re-gifting you, even better than before
         and pray especially for the many still lurking in the shadows

–    Kim Johnson

 

Blessed Oblivion

travel journal
back to Covent Garden
street performer strums and sings
Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah”
nine-year-old boy ten feet away
chubby Down Syndrome dancer
dances like no one’s watching
gray t-shirt, denim shorts, red Velcro sneakers, horn-rimmed glasses, blonde hair
jumps, spins, and sways,
OUT OF SYNC
immersed in the music
stealing the show
arms raised, face skewed skyward
oblivious to all else
IN SYNC
with the moment
loving life as so few do

– Kim Johnson

German Interludes
customs in Berlin

a venomous attitude

is he rude at home?

does he have a family?

has he ever smiled before?
city walking tour

with guide Silke Schlittermann

history unfolds

Topographie des Terrors

timeline of atrocities

don’t get run over

stay aware of where you are

Berlin has bike lanes

car and subway train traffic

street trams and buses fly by

plexiglass in ground

empty bookshelves underneath

remember the fire

“If they’ll burn books, they’ll burn souls”

that’s exactly what they did

quinoa salad

Auf die Hand Feinstes fast food

beet root and edamame

spring mix and small green apple

water to drink with this lunch

black licorice sticks

postcards for all four grandkids

blue Berlin neck scarves

gummy bears and schokolades

Kinder egg with a surprise

swindlers swaggering

Pickpockets people-picking

Maryjane-berlin dot com

colorful hair and tattoos

graffitied buildings
white asparagus

in season six weeks in spring

buttery in soup

never seen the light of day

green above ground, white below

Weidendammer Bridge

lovers’ names engraved on locks

fastened to the rails

authorities cut the locks

the love they symbolize lives
-Kim Johnson

 
 
Spree River Boat Ride

 

evening boat ride along Berlin’s Spree River

returning the greetings of festive Germans

drinking a Schweppes Bitter Lemon,

reveling in the pulse of this city, smiling at the locks on Weidendammer Bridge

 

returning the greetings of festive Germans

waving back to the stumbling partiers, benched old lovers, and blue-haired goths

reveling in the pulse of this city, smiling at the locks on Weidendammer Bridge

taking in the sunset, watching the dancers, admiring the scenic city

 

waving back to the stumbling partiers, benched old lovers, and blue-haired goths

German beer changes the attitude and sets the mood

taking in the sunset, watching the dancers, admiring the scenic city

realizing that happiness and merriment are universal

 

German beer changes the attitude and sets the mood

drinking a Schweppes Bitter Lemon

realizing that happiness and merriment are universal

evening boat ride along Berlin’s Spree River
-Kim Johnson

 

 

 
 
 
My Egg Cracked
 
 
 
my cherished German Kinder Egg cracked

shattered schokolade pieces around a surprise inside

crushed on one side, wrapping splitting open at side seams

rude German baggage security men reacted with sympathy

 

shattered schokolade pieces around a surprise inside

airport security made me empty the schokolade from my suitcase

rude German baggage security men reacted with sympathy

suddenly taken back to their childhood memories, grieving the egg

 

airport security made me empty the schokolade from my suitcase

angrily frowning at the world, like barking dogs threatening to maul passengers

suddenly taken back to their childhood memories, grieving the egg

from the wicked demands of adulthood back to the wonder of childhood

 

angrily frowning at the world, like barking dogs threatening to maul passengers

crushed on one side, wrapping splitting open at side seams

from the wicked demands of adulthood back to the wonder of childhood

my cherished German Kinder Egg cracked
   -Kim Johnson

 

In Handwerksbrauerei Lemke Berlin 5-25-2019

eating red cabbage
white asparagus cream soup
raspberry sour beer
raisin pancake for dessert
friendly young German waiter

-Kim Johnson

A Travel Tanka

Passport Ready

I’m Germany bound.
passport: who is THAT person?
one small carry-on
clothes to exchange for new ones
a locking khaki backpack

traveling alone
looking for signs with my name
Berlin is waiting
host city, eager teachers
learning the tour leader ropes

-Kim Johnson

Challenge from Sarah Donovan:  write a Tanka poem (5-7-5-7-7)  or a Reverse Tanka poem (7-7-5-7-5) about a summer topic of your choice

estuary sanctuary
escape from the world and breathe
salt air, warm sun, gentle breeze
peaceful tidal creeks
from Goulds Inlet to East Beach
summer kayaking
-Kim Johnson

Travel Mash-Up Poem using borrowed lines from John Burroughs and Thomas Hood

Unsmooth Landing

Serene, I fold my hands and wait (“Waiting,” John Burroughs)
E-Ticket ready, airport gate
Off to Berlin, red-eye boarding
Reading, writing, sleep affording

With eyelids heavy and red (“Song of the Shirt,” Thomas Hood)
19-B, neck pillow bed
Fast asleep, bumpy landing instead
Wait. Where am I?
          Home, in bed. 

-Kim Johnson, using borrowed lines from John Burroughs and Thomas Hood