Belonging in the Change

a tiny black wet

Schnoodle nose

nudges my arm as

marble-black eyes

covered with wild brows

peer up at me

from the camper seat

when I lift my arm

to raise my mug,

drink cold brew coffee

from my Halloween

Snoopy mug I truly

believe will make

the cool temperatures

arrive sooner ~

Fitz is slumped

against me,

seeking, too, all

the magic of

forthcoming fall

the changing

of seasons, gentle

wind blowing outside,

a tad early for the

acorns peppering the

camper’s roof but

all the rest of

the comfort of rituals

he knows as

reassuring trust

and belonging

in his forever family

the ding

next time he

goes to a

storytelling night

he will time his

cliffhanger at

exactly two and

one half minutes

and then when

they tap that

ridiculous spoon

on the coffee cup

to signal thirty

more seconds

he will smile

return to his seat

leave everyone

hanging

and sit down

Refrigerator Casket

in my melatonin dreams

the cemetery trees

hung low over the corner

graves in a

chain link grocery store

parking lot ~

going in for milk and eggs

I couldn’t

believe my eyes.

A refrigerator.

a pine box with a plunger

stuck to the top to open it

for anyone who wanted to

see the body inside, there

above ground

no one would believe this~

I took a picture

then woke up

horrified that anyone

would be buried in

a display grave

Celebration Shoes

it occurred to me

in the shower

this morning that

the work shoes

I just bought

may be the last ones

I’ll need for my career ~

these last-hurrah celebration shoes:

Life Stride flats with

Velocity 2.0 footbeds

in navy and taupe

may get me through my

remaining years

taking me straight into

the retirement years of

my soul spirit

classic hippie Birkenstocks

for all the frayed denim

and fringed shawl

days ahead

just not today,

not yet.

Getting a Grip

getting a grip on

her future starts with

burning the Christmas tree

boxes one decade now in

her attic

buying enough hummingbird

nectar to last through October

and watering the string of pearls

cascading from the porch table

getting a grip is festooned with

saying goodbyes to too much

long held hostage from living

new lives in better spaces

like all those music boxes

of childhood and sad, stained

table linens frayed with holes ~

gaps in the timelines of

lineage like broken branches

on that cross-stitched tree

of names and thread strands

of who goes where and how

pre-affair, divorce, remarriage,

cousins once-removed now

fully removed and never coming

back because they did the

same thing with their goodbyes ~

they burned the Christmas tree

boxes and all that’s left is

the cooling ash of

what once was

before their birds

left the nest for the skies

From Where I Sit

sheers in the window

sun streaked shadows

morning slants

ever-changing

golden eggshell glimmers

radiant shimmers

streaming in

to greet the day

in slow-paced

weekend rays

I savor this

tempting taste

What’s Next?

Me in 25 years

What’s Next?

I’ve decided

that when I retire

I should go to

work for Caterpillar

pulling up

fence posts

dragging fences

lifting trash into

dumpsters

raising fig pickers

to the tip tops

of trees

retire from

education to

push the buttons,

turn the wheels,

steer the tires,

raise the levers of

heavy machinery

Backseat Whale Feeding


twenty five years ago

we smiled at family pictures

taken that same day

with all the colorful striped

fish in the Gulf of Mexico

swimming between the lens

and our smiling eyes inside

our masks after our

cruise ship dinner

fish not there to make the

water look like a happy place

teeming with adventure

but to eat of the photographer’s

fish food, tiny dollar signs

not evident in the photos

which is why I told a friend

in Massachussets when we

were in the Uber going whale

watching that the only reason

they could guarantee a

whale sighting was because

they feed them

and her expression said

it made sense to her

but not the Uber driver

who snapped back

that’s absurd!

we do NOT feed our whales,

the ocean does!

but I kept it all

stirred up from the

back seat

asking whether

the tour boat sold photos

and t-shirts and mugs,

nodding with

suspicious raised

eyebrows at his retorts

to these whale feedings

before his bombshell

revelation question~

and you two ladies are whale

watching in those clothes?

(it was true: we were

wearing thin long-sleeved

t-shirts, one layer only,

having forgotten about

the fierce ocean winds

of late October)

where are your jackets?

you’ll freeze

to which I replied

heck, no, sir! we won’t freeze

we plan to buy

the souvenir jackets

when we buy our bag of

whale food

in the adventure shop

my friend could hardly

contain her laughter

and we exploded with

belly-burning snortles

when we stepped

out of the car,

rushing in to buy

thick hoodies and sunglasses

at the ticket pick-up

but we knew he’d won

with a quick phone call to

the tour boat company

when the boat narrator

announced she’d heard

that there are people

who mistakenly believe

that the boats

feed the whales

(glancing in our

direction, everyone

else giggling and

exchanging raised

eyebrow eyerolls)

before explaining

the truth